i would've loved you

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i would've loved you
if you would've given me
what you implied you would give
what you wanted to give
i would've loved you
if you could've

implication
a crumb
a lie
a hologram
i see now
you were never for me
i see now
what you knew down deep
i see now
what i tried not to see

that your light show is not mine
that you gave all you could
i don't blame you for that
i can't tame you like that
and yet
i would've loved you
with earnest solidity
if you could've been solid with me

Lisa Rachel Snyder